Richie...my Rainbow.

Four years ago I wrote "Chasing Rainbows" whilst sitting in my room in a hospital. Despite everything I knew that one day I would find my rainbow.

And I did...I found Richie.

Chasing Rainbows

So many rainbows I have chased them all.

Some so out of reach, never rose to their height.

Some so brightly coloured, one touch and they faded.

Some so distant and pale, I could not travel that far.

Some appeared unexpectedly, shone and moved on.

Some failed to appear, when sun and rain met.

Some so transparent, their colours dilute.

Some so big and beautiful, were shared amongst all......

One day I will catch it, my very own bow.

With rich vibrant colours that endlessly glow.

Will love it and cherish it, shine in it's light.

Its' pot of pure gold,will forever be mine.

© Ellen Johns 2002

Richie...the rainbow I have waited my whole life for.With every beautiful colour I have ever imagined, shining in the deepest part of my heart. Illuminating my life.

I chased and caught my rainbow but now he is flickering and dimming in the shadow of grey skies.His colours fading.

Every sunrise and sunset has led me to him, every path I have ever walked has been part of a journey leading me to him.

How I wanted to cherish my rainbow, but instead I've tainted his colours with my palette of black.

Now I am going to shine for him, for both of us, and re-ignite his light.

Soon, I am going to hold my rainbow and am never going to let go.

I love my rainbow.

Richie has just found out he's very poorly. When he told me, just yesterday, I heard every dream we ever had...crack and crash to the floor.
Since then, I have picked every single one up and have pieced them all back together.


I desperately need to go to him and we are trying to make this possible.All I have ever wanted is to be with him.I hear him all around me, in his words, in his wonderful music, in his songs, the ones he has written for me, but at this moment in time I need to be with him in person.

I can't write my own words for Richie at this moment so I have borrowed the lyrics from one of my favourite artists.I know he'll understand.

Please Forgive Me...David Grey


Please forgive me if i act a little strange
For i know not what i do
Feels like lightning running through my veins
Every time i look at you
Every time i look at you

Help me out here all my words are falling short
And theres so much i want to say
I wanna tell you just how good it feels
When you look at me that way
When you look at me that way

Throw a stone and watch the ripples flow
Moving out across the bay
Like a stone i fall deep into your eyes
Deep into that mystery
Deep into some mystery

I got half a mind to scream out loud
I got half a mind to die
So i wont ever have to lose you boy
Wont ever have to say goodbye
I wont ever have to lie
Wont ever have to say goodbye

Please forgive me if i act a little strange
For i know now what i do
Feels like lightning running through my veins
Every time i look at you
Every time i look at you

Hi Ho, Hi Ho, it's off to work I go!

Well, I haven't posted for a while so thought it was time for an update.

This coming Saturday, I am going to be working with Berenice, at her place of employment, a restaurant just out of town. I used to work there with her five years ago until some not so good things happened in my life and I had to leave.

I have fond memories of the last time we worked together and am looking forward to going back. I am still keeping my part-time job at the school, so will now have two jobs!!! Lucky me.

I am going to be working in the kitchen, my favourite place to be. Lots of chatter, loud music playing and an escape route out back for a cigarette break!!! I am hoping it will be like the old days, although there will be new faces and other changes. I'm sure I will get back into the swing of it pretty soon.

So, it looks like my Saturdays from now on are going to consist of 11 hours of hard graft!!! Hey, I've just remembered...my favourite medical drama is on, on a Saturday night. Jeepers, is it too late to change my mind I wonder?

How my life has changed for the better this past year. I have fallen in love for the first time, gone back to work, become active again in my church, am drug-free (prescription drugs) and feel physically and mentally well, for the first time in a long, long time.

My post on Saturday will no doubt be full of moans and groans about aching feet and hair that smells of cooking fat!!!

But I am truly happy.

Walking around the Great Orme.

The West Shore


This is a pic of the lighthouse which has been
converted into a hotel. What a great location.


That big rock jutting out is the Great Orme.
That's what I'm going to walk round!


Turning a corner and the pier straight ahead.


Spring at last.


It's a bit of a climb but worth it. Looking back
towards the West Shore.



About half-way round here.



Fizz





Here is the cafe located half way round. On a bit
of an angle (oops).


Here is the latest addition to the boating pond.
The black swan joined us earlier this year.





An abundance of yellow gorse this year.


This is one of my favourite walks, around the Great Orme. It is approx: 4 and a quarter miles in distance with some stunning views. Now the weather has warmed up a little, I like to do this walk about once a week.

People run round, cycle round, drive round, skate round, travel on an antiquated bus which runs a trip...but me, I just prefer to walk.

You can start the walk from either the toll bar at the North Shore near to the pier, or from the West Shore. These pics were taken last week and I started from the West Shore. I usually take Fizz and she enjoys it just as much as me, especially the views of the sheep and goats!!!

On a good day, I can make it round in 50 minutes. Phew. I usually arrive at Berenice's place all hot and bothered and she always makes me a cup of tea!

It is quite hilly at the start but levels out quite soon.

I haven't taken any scenic pics for quite a while now so was pleased that these came out as well as they did.

They are in no particular order.

I hope Richie is feeling energetic when he visits!!! I'm sure he will enjoy this walk a great deal.

Berenice is going to start joining me shortly. We are going to do the walk on one of her days off. She does know about this...honest.

Found those pics!

Hi
Have at last managed to put my baby pics up. Thanks to Imran who does have one for the collage and to Richie who needs to pick one of his.

Just waiting on Berenice, Pris and James now to "reveal" all with theirs. Smiles.

Berenice is on holiday so when she gets home we will make the collage together if that's O.K. with you guys.

If you mail your chosen pic to me I will save them all and post the collage when it's complete.

Thanks for being good sports and joining in. It will be fun to see all our cute little faces with no wrinkles or grey hairs!!!
Good to know you all.

Baby Days....

Well I have just come from Richie's blog where he has posted some pics of himself when he was a little fella...he's a cute big fella but an even cuter little one...smiles.

If any of you would like to contribute to the "baby days" gallery, I think it would be good fun. I recall Berenice and Imran saying that they are a little short on baby pics, but even if it's just the one it would be enlightening for us all to see each other in small scale.

Maybe I could make a collage of the pics and post it here, with B's help of course. She's good at stuff like that. It's just an idea. Let me know what you think...

Smiling...from ear to ear.

Well, it's a week ago tonight since I posted about me and Richie not being together anymore...

Three days ago I saw something I never thought I would see again...a mail from Richie in my inbox! Even then, I just stared at the unopened mail thinking...this is going to be a "been nice knowing you but goodbye" mail. I am so glad it didn't say that.

I phoned Richie on Thursday and got his voice-mail and then a minute or two later he phoned me back and we got to speak for the first time. As soon as I heard him speak, be it in a sleepy voice, I just knew that it was all going to be O.K..I was so nervous and can't remember everything I said, but I remember every single word he said to me!!!

He did have his reasons and we have talked everything through. Like I said to him, in the past I have been very good at switching off my emotions almost with immediate effect, but not where he's concerned.

I have never felt so lost and lonely in all my life and hope I never feel like that again! Richie has posted his take on things on his blog (my music) as I have here.

I love him so much and it feels so good to be able to smile again when I think of him. Thanks to Berenice for being there for me during all this. I have been so quiet and distracted...real hard work! and thanks to all my friends here too for helping me through.

P.S...here is the link for Berenice's page on the Victorian Extravaganza. She has worked really hard with this and I for one am proud of her. Thanks B.

http://www.poetatrest.com/Llandudno/extravaganza2006.html

Extravaganza.

Well, it has been a very busy Bank Holiday week-end in our little town. We have had what is called "The Victorian Extravaganza" which is held every year at about this time. It's an event which attracts thousands of tourists from all over the U.K. and beyond.

The main streets are closed to traffic, and instead of the usual cars, there are stalls, side-shows, rides, all kinds of transport from the Victorian era and much more.

Many people dress up in Victorian costumes and stroll through the town and along the promenade. It is very noisy and smokey but also very interesting.

I met Berenice yesterday morning whilst I was wandering around and we went for coffee. She was armed with her camera and I was with her when she got some wonderful pics of people dressed up. My daughters had my camera, as they wanted it to take pics at a charity football match they went to with their dad.

So in order to see any pics, it will be courtesy of Berenice. I know she is very busy at the moment but am sure she will be posting all about it on her blog in the next few days.I'm sure she won't mind if we pay a visit to her blog when she's finished the post.

Our town is strangely quiet now and all the attractions and visitors left for home last night. So it's back to the reality of the here and now after our trip back in time, and on with the week ahead.